I don't want... I don't want... I don't want... I don't want... I don't want...
Things not stable yet. I don't want.
Why he can't see I changed becoz of him? I do so much, but they said I am still the same. Gong gong. Gong gong
To me means I am stupid.
Yes. Wo Chen ren I never use brain to think for the 20% for worth it.
I take this course, paid $1200 I never regret. Becoz I bu Xiang everyday live in a world always scold stupid, gong gong, blur by tong shi, and.... I must study well and get the cert.
Don't make me stress, give me all these problems now.
Thursday exam. Last week They told me something I don't even dare to think of it de thing.
I changed but I know I can change to a better person. But give me time.
But he never see I changed, must be I never change a lot that why he don't see any change in me BA.
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5/2/12
I am no longer the Adeline frens look at me.
Don't like now de me.
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5/12/11
Xin li mian, hao hao hao fan. someone listen my xinshi hao ma? i just wan someone to listen. is it so difficult?
Finally Wed, can meet him. got so many things to tell him. but leh, in the end nvr say out.
why every week book out, must not happy? Every week I Will Make Him Angry.i know he so tired and sleepy he will still meet me once a week. but i always make him angry.
Today I really dun know wear one of ur slipper will make us quarrel. I really really dunnno. I dun let u wear becoz I scare u fall. becoz of this u not happy, dun wan to meet me next week.
last year, when i go interview for job at loyang, 2 job available. reception and sals coordinator. sales coor higher salary, he said they wun want me work as sales coordinator de......\
Now i am looking for job, his attitude like last time before i found my first full time job. aiya... dunno how to describe.
He Said once, no matter what I will still want you de.
after told him abt my job, he said you continue blur, I will dun want you one day. since the day i told him my job, every week book out he will nt happy with me.
which is true?
tell me tell me tell me tell me.
This week work, super sian, stone there. stone make me more blur, coz nvr use brain ma.
hope type all these out, i will feel much bettter and stop crying.
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5/7/11
haiz I got so many things to say, but don't know where to start.
say le scare make others not happy, never say i feel sad.
aiya... tell me what to do.
Scare to lose you coz I love you.
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11/9/10
Tuesday, November 09, 2010
Yesterday dear at night called me. although we chat less than 15 mins. I am v happy. haha. Thanks dear. I love you.Muacks
Today dear 2nd day in NS le. sms him, he never reply, must be very xinku today. Training very xinku. my heart pain, see dear xinku. :(
Wondering dear what time he can rest and sleep? Dear you jia you!
faster next tuesday,coz dear book out =D YEY
cough for days, now sputum yellow colour de, and got flu also. faster recover next tue, wed den can kiss my dear. haha =)
Faster 16 NOV~~~ I miss him very much.
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11/7/10
1 more day dear going NS, I feel so sad when see him xinku. But no choice all guys must go NS de ma.hope tmr can meet him, cook pork chop for him. =)
This week dear weird weird de, after talk to him, he will say negative about me.
Everytime we go Ghouby Ghaut, we will not happy. I hate Ghouby Ghaut, plaza singpaura.
I should be happy can watch movie with him, but I cried in the cinema.while waitin for bus home, he said I lived in terance house, doesnt mean I am rich, meaning like I am tai tai. I NEVER THINK I LIVE IN TERANCE HOUSE, I AM TAI TAI. IF I THINK I AM TAI TAI, I WON'T GO TALK FREE GIFT. I know I am not rich, this house is my mummy, not mine. I never thought that this house will be mine. I am so disappointed that he said this.
why I never think of de, he will say i think of this and that den say like my fault.
My dear not like this de, why he changed this week? is it because he scared NS so change, I want my dear back. i want my dear.
my last time dear, can chat anything with him. ask him drink water, he will take his water bottle out, den i open the cap give him drink, now de dear, he said, you have water right. now dear like abit attitude.
If today i chat with you, u didn't give the attitude, i dunno how to say. the feeling is super bad. so disappointed. I won't cry and disappointed. I will forget it and like normal.
Dear I love you, i just want you treat me better. can like last time, I can talk anything to you.
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5/16/10
Tonight going for 3rd gu daugther wedding dinner. I dun wan to go because I dun wan to see my ergu and dagu. hai.
Everyweek only weekend can meet my dear, this week only meet on sat. wish today also can meet him. Yesterday I am very happy because I meet him. =D
He brought me to Thai express to eat. so yummy. haha. Thanks dear =D
I asked my mummy, how much she wan me to give her. hai.
Ask erge how much he give mummy, he say, alot that you cant give. $500 a month. told her, mummy wan me give her the amt, he reply, like tat still call too much ar... he still say alot. wA, wA, wA, when mummy nt at home, he say mummy nt good, this n that.
MUmmy at home, say I am not good.
Open my eye big big, pull my ear wide. see my family, talk to me say tis, talk to others, another story.
I am so sad today, i cry. I am strong so I won't because of this small thing no mood to do other things, and continue cry.
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